7/22/08 - Tuesday
5:33pm

Hey! I have to gain about 10-15 lbs. So right now I'm eating a bagel and cream cheese and I must admit, I'm not enjoying myself cuz I just drank a nutrament. lol I am truly suffering because I do not enjoy eating - lol! Some of my friends say food actually makes them happy. This is really torture to me. I have to force feed myself.
:( HELP!!! Seriously...

And the messed up thing about it is, it's a 90% chance I won't gain. I tried to weight gain before and it worked but it didn't stick and it went to my face and stomache (didn't want that). The minute I stopped taking in food, I literally lost 3 lbs a day til I was back to my normal weight. So all that eating I did was for nothing.

Last time, what seemed to help was Nutraments (ill) and taking in 2300 calories a day (sigh). I've been told that I eat a lot to be so thin, but due to genetics, I have to eat more than the average female to achieve a normal size. The women in my family were all thin til they had babies!!! I haven't had any yet so I gotta eat. lol Well gotta go! I'm due to eat a cherry pop tart and somethin' else. ~ Rissa